Tuesday, August 04, 2009

1 year

I can't believe that it has been a year without having Ali with us. 365 days is a lot when you think about it but then when your living it, it really isn't..... I guess. It just doesn't seem like it's been a year in my mind it seems like yesterday. I have had a lot of hard days and lots of good days. But these past few days have been hard. Harder then I thought they would be, or I just thought I'd be okay. I can still cry but I also can smile and laugh talking about her. So many mixed feelings going through my head. I know that we all heal different. In different ways at different times. I don't think I'll ever be over it, it just gets a little easier at times to cope with. I know that others have moved on with their life and have found new things , new hobbies, new loves. Which I'm not mad that they have followed their hearts and moved on I just wish I could have found out about it in a different way. It's sad to say, to know that in time some of those people that were there won't be there anymore. That they decide to move on and leave the life they once lived behind them.

Thank you for all the nice emails, prayers, text messages and comments I really needed them today. It's wonderful to know that Ali hasn't been forgotten. My family, close friends, and I will always keep Ali's memory going.

I have planned things to do today to help me not focus totally on Ali. I know that having my little girls will help me with that. I also planned a dinner with Chad, the girls, and I in memory of Alison tonight. To celebrate her life, talk about her, look at pictures of her. I want our girls to know that Auntie Ali was a wonderful person that she made an impact on so many peoples life's.

I still have bracelets for those of you who haven't got them yet. So please get in contact with me. We want to make the donation soon. And thank you to those that have bought bracelets.

4 comments:

Traci said...

Remembering sweet Alison today. Many, many prayers being sent your way!
Love,
Traci (Speicher) Hummer

Kimberly said...

Thinking of you all and sending prayers up to God for your peace. Hold on to those babies, talk, remember, and smile at all the good things that Ali left her mark on. Which by the way is you. I can see her so much in you and for me that warms my heart. Hang in there sweety.

- Kimberly

Courtney said...

Rene, my thoughts have been with your family all day. I know it's really tough and I miss her so much :(

I wanted to get 2 bracelets but wasn't sure how. Let me know...sorry I might have missed the directions in a prior blog or something.

p.s. I never thought that somebody would be able to move on and now that they have I can see how it's hard to handle but at the same time it's comforting to know he's able to feel again. I don't know if that helps but it's the only way I can think about it.

Courtney

Addi said...

I forgot to say something to you yesterday...but let me know about the bracelets. I wanted to get one! You can just facebook me.